Saturday, 25 October 2008
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Yay initiation tonight! Congratulations to all the new initiates, and yay for the two new Phi's as well! It's crazy to think back to a year ago from today and remember what life was like... I was so timid and afraid of being here at the house, and now look at me. I love Phi Mu and all these girls and I can't imagine my life without them. Of course, I really miss my friends from the dorms since I never get to see them anymore--> I'm so busy all the time! Hopefully things will slow down a bit next semester, but somehow I sincerely doubt that. Either way, I can't believe how much and how quickly things have changed.
Shay and I watched the Bucket List the other day. I've seen it before, of course, and every time it makes me think of writing my own bucket list. Future project, just letting you in on that awesomeness ahead of time.
I taught the girls the animal game tonight, that was pure joy.
That game is incredible, I can't believe I've never played it before the retreat! I love watching how into it people get. Rachel and Harri tonight were going at it solid, it was amazing. The two of them were almost as intense as Logan was this weekend... priceless!The candle passing tonight was pretty good... I felt like I actually said something worthwhile. There's no way I adequately expressed everything I meant to, but to even have scratched the surface is quality. I couldn't believe it when Amy started talking about me and said that she had thought that I was cool and wanted to get to know me last year. I always feel a little on the outside around here, but I wonder now if that's mostly my fault. Either way, what Amy said really touched me. These girls are so awesome, I wish that they could see how sweet they are, and also that others would really get to know them and understand what amazing women they are.
Talking to Tony right now... I've been thinking about him a lot lately, and we started talking tonight about the fact that he's still bitter about the way things ended. It's just not fair, how things are between us. I love the kid so much, but we can't ever establish a solid friendship because of everything that happened in the past. I feel like I'm constantly walking a tightrope and one false step is going to send us both tumbling. Being around upsets him and consequently his family, who I also adore. But not being around just plain sucks. That's selfish, though, isnt' it? But if I try to just walk away from it, he tells me that's not what he wants. So either way we're just torturing ourselves. So what do I do???
Oh life. I plan on sleeping til noon tomorrow and then doing homework for the rest of forever. Yay my life.
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